i'm holding on to something i shouldn't held onto. i know we're never meant to be. anyway. i love you.

i want to know who's lollipop :(

i miss you so much peanut. saw you yesterday but we only had just a simple talk and i had to leave :'( i wanna see you more. i wanna know who's in your heart and the feelings toward me. can you tell me? 

getting new life now, i want you so badly, peanut! :)

bread, i feel so far from you even when you are just next to me.
i miss peanut more and more.

without you, nothing is possible for me

the time this week, had passed too slow. i wish it could go faster. so that i don't have the time to think about love, and you. i miss you. i guess we are not meant to be. you are important to me, but i really have to move on. you have your sweet life there with another girl, i shouldn't interrupt. i hope you and her may get along longer. i can be alone, don't worry about me. even though it's hurtful, I'm worth the pain. i chose to leave at first, I'm the one to be blamed. I'm so sorry. i know i shouldn't be this selfish, to want you back and dump that girl over there. impossible!  i hope i can be as tough and strong like you, to stand up again and move on without me. i won't die without you, but my world, is always dull without you "/


brandon. if you're seeing this, I'm okay. don't worry about me! :) i still can smile and laugh at the same time. I'm so sorry. i failed my task. i texted him. my stupid and selfish fingers go and pressed his number and texted him. stupid right? "/


tara. i know you know who i seriously miss now. you are the best babe. you listened to my emo shit stuff. i really hope that bread can turn back and look at me. but it's impossible. i wanna cry so badly, but i know i can never do that. "/

pretending to be no one

i'm all to moody again "/ i saw what you wrote to that girl. please don't be so stupid can ah? you told her about your true colors, seriously, not everyone can accept that. i know you were lonely, but that couldn't be the reasons for you to act that way to everyone. you were being open-minded, not everyone out there are the same.just take care. seeing you like that, it hurts too much. be back yourself. i prefer the old you. normal and simple.


i'm having a flu. and it is a terrible one. where you horrible? i miss you!!! "/

can you feel the love tonight?

it was raining so heavily. i was nearly to death just now. i was riding my motorbike in a very high speed then suddenly a bump came into me and i nearly couldn't stop my bike. at that very moment, you were the only one in my mind. the strong cold wind with pouring rain slapped me hard on both of my face and my entire body, to wake me up again and again, that the fact that you are not mine. i wanted to cry but nothing came out, that suffering feeling that i don't wanna get in my life ever again. sometimes, two person have to fall apart to realize that you need to fall back together. i don't know about you but yes, i think that way because i love you. hope you do to me too. ahh. i miss you now. biology now, got to go. byeee "/

you are my everything "/

i texted you and you but whom i waiting for replies was you, darling, i need you :( i always think of you before getting into bed. ahhhh! i need to forget about you and start my blahs. anyway. i counted days till trials. i got nine subjects and 2 days for a single subject? omgosh! time is running out "/ i'm so scared that i might not score :'( it's 4.30am now. thanks to my maid who got me up so early. ish.


imissyou too much.

:)

cried for the whole night. i know so well that i am not the first one who gets to sit your new car. your words poke me hard in my heart. i'm all awake. i was so cold last night. facing the fan alone. the blowing wind slapped me hard on my face. woke me up. i shouldn't be so stupid to fall in love again. yeah you were right. i don't need anyone to fill in my emptiness. i can be alone even if the sky is falling down. i'm not as weak as it seemed to be. better still, i have bunch of friends. never mind, time can fade love. i love you dp but you love jelly. i'm moving on. on the other hand, i'm letting you go at last. the very moment i saw you were so afraid to lost her, my heart aches again, seriously. it dawn on me that i wasn't the one you want anymore. i will leave. i'm not gonna be there to take care of you, let her replace me. you said so much of stuff about her, i was jealous. but now, i'm smiling for you. good luck to you lzt and be prepared for everything. i'll always love you, as a very good friend.

heard you saying that you love her. my heart aches :( wish you luck and all the best. i miss you.

Done stalking on you. Not going school tomorrow but Library! :)

imissyou.

my heart aches :(

I'm going to deactivate my facebook account. I'm not gonna online until my spm is over. I maybe will update my blog. I wasnt feeling so right last night. My heart aches :( I wanted to burst out my tears but It couldnt come out. I felt so lonely. I rolled on my bed until past midnight. I supposed to sleep at eleven thirty. I texted you, No replies. I know you are probably asleep. I wanted to tell you everything but you stopped me. I hate waiting seriously. I just don't know what to do. You are all i ever wanted. I guess we are not meant to be anyway. I miss you now. There's no where else for me to express my feelings, only here. For you, leinad :'(


On the other hand, I know you don't love me that much dy. and when I told you im sad, you gave me no reaction and all i wanted is just some comfort. but did you give me? No you didnt. I hate you law zhen theng. I'm so sorry that we seriously cannot be friends. I'm too invisible for you. I'm so sorry :'(

no secrets between us

i hate secrets. can you promise me not to keep everything away from me? ahhh. i love you. seriously. i just don't wanna show it to you. actually i really do. :'( please, if you want me, tell me. i hate waiting!

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.