have been doing a lot stuff lately. i got to know a lot of people this month. you are always the one i refer to everytime i'm down. i'll never tell you how i feel. because i'm afraid that you're not going to accept it and so yeah. i prefer not to. this is the first time i treated someone so nicely on a bike! i miss that moment anyway. and of course, you are definitely out of my mind. it's been so many months. anyway, should i celebrate my birthday this year? i'd celebrated all my birthdays with you. it's the past. now, i wanted a change. AHHH. i need a birthday celebration. ANYONE?

my life is full of laughters :)

im going to watch johnny english later. wheee. i'm going out with my best best buddy, hyj :) hhahhaha. i tried out some dresses yesterday. i saw one dress, twas kind of cute. so yeah. i'm buying it. 70bucks only verd. neway, it will be awesome with a ribbon-shaped belt, buying it too. i miss yesterday. laughed too much. played too much and walked too much. and now, muscles ache. pain like mad cow!

IT'S KIND OF UNBELIEVABLE THAT IT'S GOING TO BE MY BIRTHDAY IN ANOTHER 31 DAYS! I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT.

ahhhhh. going out later :)

omgosh. are you one stalker anyway? i know who am i. actually, i am growing up. wheee. neway, i don't judge. i'm not a judger. so yeah. you get your life tooo. pretty little stalker. owh, did i mention pretty? oppsyyy!

neway, i got an A for my malay paper. WHOOTS! loving it. and i feel like going to YOUR college next year. so yeah. wheee.

i can sleep so well these days. i know YOU can't :) i'm with my big big smile now. i'm so glad and happy to see you stalking on me! :)

PEOPLE. im only seventeen. i don't talk right sometimes. so yeah. immature thinking. so why do you even care what i've said? immature!

i know i did one awesome decision.

i love to see how you and her got into a fight! i smiled more. wheeee. i can't believe you look more disgusting when you are with her. luckily i dumped you! yesh you were my everything but now, shit you. muahahah. i threw away all our pictures, i don't even want to look at them. owh yeah and your girl, luckily she's not even better than me. woohoo. i feel so happy now seriously.



i'm taking back all my words that i've said the other day, yeejin. hahahha. i won't be so stupid anymore!

wheeee! i can sleep so well last night. maybe because of that call. hahaha. twas awesome neway :) glad to have a talk with you every night before bed, i really need that thou :) ahhh, imysm :) but dylm?

you will never know how much i missed you lately. i couldn't sleep at night. even when i really fell asleep, some nightmares will wake me up eventually and suffers again to sleep sometimes i really wanted to cry myself to bed but my tears just won't flow down. i'm not sad enough. i just MISS you. it's going to be three months without you but i just couldn't let go that feeling. all i want is just, calling you every night before going to bed, text you everyday, and share with you my secrets. that's all im asking from you. i told myself not to think about you, but my fucked-up mind just doesn't seems to bother. My gosh. you are bugging my life. I hope that i can do it without you. I always say that i'm letting you go. but will i? that's seriously a question!

It's 3am now. I'm having my BM papers in few more hours! I'm super nervous. This would be my very last chance to get good results before SPM. I'm so afriad of getting low marks. I wanna get good results for once in my life. Ahhh. I hope i can do it. Anyway, I miss you so much :'(

i'm holding on to something i shouldn't held onto. i know we're never meant to be. anyway. i love you.

i want to know who's lollipop :(

i miss you so much peanut. saw you yesterday but we only had just a simple talk and i had to leave :'( i wanna see you more. i wanna know who's in your heart and the feelings toward me. can you tell me? 

getting new life now, i want you so badly, peanut! :)

bread, i feel so far from you even when you are just next to me.
i miss peanut more and more.

without you, nothing is possible for me

the time this week, had passed too slow. i wish it could go faster. so that i don't have the time to think about love, and you. i miss you. i guess we are not meant to be. you are important to me, but i really have to move on. you have your sweet life there with another girl, i shouldn't interrupt. i hope you and her may get along longer. i can be alone, don't worry about me. even though it's hurtful, I'm worth the pain. i chose to leave at first, I'm the one to be blamed. I'm so sorry. i know i shouldn't be this selfish, to want you back and dump that girl over there. impossible!  i hope i can be as tough and strong like you, to stand up again and move on without me. i won't die without you, but my world, is always dull without you "/


brandon. if you're seeing this, I'm okay. don't worry about me! :) i still can smile and laugh at the same time. I'm so sorry. i failed my task. i texted him. my stupid and selfish fingers go and pressed his number and texted him. stupid right? "/


tara. i know you know who i seriously miss now. you are the best babe. you listened to my emo shit stuff. i really hope that bread can turn back and look at me. but it's impossible. i wanna cry so badly, but i know i can never do that. "/

pretending to be no one

i'm all to moody again "/ i saw what you wrote to that girl. please don't be so stupid can ah? you told her about your true colors, seriously, not everyone can accept that. i know you were lonely, but that couldn't be the reasons for you to act that way to everyone. you were being open-minded, not everyone out there are the same.just take care. seeing you like that, it hurts too much. be back yourself. i prefer the old you. normal and simple.


i'm having a flu. and it is a terrible one. where you horrible? i miss you!!! "/

can you feel the love tonight?

it was raining so heavily. i was nearly to death just now. i was riding my motorbike in a very high speed then suddenly a bump came into me and i nearly couldn't stop my bike. at that very moment, you were the only one in my mind. the strong cold wind with pouring rain slapped me hard on both of my face and my entire body, to wake me up again and again, that the fact that you are not mine. i wanted to cry but nothing came out, that suffering feeling that i don't wanna get in my life ever again. sometimes, two person have to fall apart to realize that you need to fall back together. i don't know about you but yes, i think that way because i love you. hope you do to me too. ahh. i miss you now. biology now, got to go. byeee "/

you are my everything "/

i texted you and you but whom i waiting for replies was you, darling, i need you :( i always think of you before getting into bed. ahhhh! i need to forget about you and start my blahs. anyway. i counted days till trials. i got nine subjects and 2 days for a single subject? omgosh! time is running out "/ i'm so scared that i might not score :'( it's 4.30am now. thanks to my maid who got me up so early. ish.


imissyou too much.

:)

cried for the whole night. i know so well that i am not the first one who gets to sit your new car. your words poke me hard in my heart. i'm all awake. i was so cold last night. facing the fan alone. the blowing wind slapped me hard on my face. woke me up. i shouldn't be so stupid to fall in love again. yeah you were right. i don't need anyone to fill in my emptiness. i can be alone even if the sky is falling down. i'm not as weak as it seemed to be. better still, i have bunch of friends. never mind, time can fade love. i love you dp but you love jelly. i'm moving on. on the other hand, i'm letting you go at last. the very moment i saw you were so afraid to lost her, my heart aches again, seriously. it dawn on me that i wasn't the one you want anymore. i will leave. i'm not gonna be there to take care of you, let her replace me. you said so much of stuff about her, i was jealous. but now, i'm smiling for you. good luck to you lzt and be prepared for everything. i'll always love you, as a very good friend.

heard you saying that you love her. my heart aches :( wish you luck and all the best. i miss you.

Done stalking on you. Not going school tomorrow but Library! :)

imissyou.

my heart aches :(

I'm going to deactivate my facebook account. I'm not gonna online until my spm is over. I maybe will update my blog. I wasnt feeling so right last night. My heart aches :( I wanted to burst out my tears but It couldnt come out. I felt so lonely. I rolled on my bed until past midnight. I supposed to sleep at eleven thirty. I texted you, No replies. I know you are probably asleep. I wanted to tell you everything but you stopped me. I hate waiting seriously. I just don't know what to do. You are all i ever wanted. I guess we are not meant to be anyway. I miss you now. There's no where else for me to express my feelings, only here. For you, leinad :'(


On the other hand, I know you don't love me that much dy. and when I told you im sad, you gave me no reaction and all i wanted is just some comfort. but did you give me? No you didnt. I hate you law zhen theng. I'm so sorry that we seriously cannot be friends. I'm too invisible for you. I'm so sorry :'(

no secrets between us

i hate secrets. can you promise me not to keep everything away from me? ahhh. i love you. seriously. i just don't wanna show it to you. actually i really do. :'( please, if you want me, tell me. i hate waiting!

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. 

oh susannah :)

This was the song i played for the whole day yesterday. i'm a beginner. hees. so dont laugh kay? oh yea & more to come!


The only one i wanted to love has goneeeeee. so far away. ahhh!
And oh yea. I kinda miss you now. Off to studies. Buhbyeee :)

back at one

i was like counting every seconds but then it all gone back to one.
ahhhh! 
it's fading btw. 
thanks to you and your flirtiness. 
muah* 
hundreds and thousands of thankew. 
got to go to study. buhbye again :)


imnevergonnamissyouanymoresinceyouneverdidbefore

owh my my. seriously UNBELIEVABLE!
continue with my studies now. bye.

i know you are the only one who believes me

i looked so cacated! i took a picture of mine again. to show that i really studied. it's not easy to stick your butt on your chair for so many hours you know? i'm doing my sejarah homework and i felt so bored and therefore i'm here updating a post about me. hees. i did a lot of questions on addmaths today in school. and yay, i went to school. and guess what? i did not make a joke today. i just smiled and never laughed. weirdo. hmm. i skipped mr.king's tuition today because my mom ain't feeling well and so i had to ( seriously HAD TO ) change to tuesday's class. not on purpose okay?! and so and so believes that i'm pregnant. that was just a joke i told but how come you thought that i can have a baby hah?! living in my uterus somemore. burden to me la dei! and so and so i just got shocked because you believed! i miss your face so suddenly. give it to me now! oh yea. i promised myself not to miss you so much. i'm so sorry :(

hardwork pays

i studied thru day and night. and the time was the only thing accompanying me everyday.

having you here is all i need now. i'm so bored alone. owh yea and btw, i'm with my addmaths. a very difficult subject but i'll try to love it like i never did before because i hate calculations and yes it explains everything. hmm. guess what? i'm not gon skip school tmrw if i manage to wake up on time. i miss school somehow. hahahaha. i went tesco with my mom, to buy myself an alarm clock and you know what? i can never get up even there's an alarm beside me. so i need TWO of em just to wake me up. aww. im so pig. hahhaha. okay. i got to keep up my hardwork on studies. buhbye.

i miss you.

i'll never forget things we had done together. thanks for all the memories you gave. i'll always remember you. but we got to keep moving on and you will always be in my heart. you took this picture and i had my first beer with you. whatever it takes, you already are my past. i'll never look back and thank you so much for everything. im glad that i was yours. you gave me a lot of happiness. every memories we had, i'll keep it as a photograph. goodbye my past and HELLO my present!

i had an absolutely wonderful night yesterday. i remember how i used to sing to you to keep you company so that you can sleep well. awww. i miss everything we said together. and i know you will never hurt me. don't worry. i'll wait :) and btw, im missing you now. so much.

why la you wanna study so much? you made me feel guity towards myself. okay so now i'll promise not to online so much because i don't wanna failed my trials. please help me my nerves. just don't go to facebook.com and also twitter.com. thankyousomuchforthat.

you are everything i have

as long as you are happy, i'm happy.
what i did was just to make you smile my dear.


i skipped school today.
i wanna stay at home and stick to my book after this post.
and of course
i wanted to be at home
i'm lazy
hahahahha !


i miss you so much now.
how i wish that you are here with me right now.
i need hugsss :(

you can make a change but you won't.

I skipped school again. I was half dead last night. I could barely open my eyes wide and big. I was so sleepy in biology class. Nearly fell asleep. But what can i do more to study more? LOL. This is the only choice for me to stay up and study. Trials are real close. I can never missed a thing during the exams. I'm too stressed-up. Ahhh! I feel like dying. FML man. 
I miss you so much now. Why aren't you here with me? I need your care. You said you will be there for me whenever i needed you but now, you ain't here. I can never change you.
Alright! I got to go and stick to my physics now. Not gonna play so much nowadays. You can only see me with my books and no others.
Buhbye. It's time for me to go.
Principle of conservation of momentum... It's 19th today. Few more days then it's the first day of august. OMFGOSHHH! Ahhhhh!

I need your hugs :(

I found myself live my life meaninglessly without you guys. You all gave me too much of laughters <3 I'll never ever forget those days we used to hang around together in school. Friendship are never meant to be forever but memories will. Treassure our time for being together. I love you my friends :) 

It's 4 in the morning

I stayed up for my studies the whole night.
I'm going school at 5 in the morning.
Reach home by 3 afternoon.
Going mano at 4.30 pm and king's at 7.45pm.
I can only sleep at 10.30 tonight.
Whao!
I'm a supergirl!

i'll promise not to hurt you like what others did to you :)

i need em'

it's been awhile since i updated my blog and now im gonna update it. awww. someone's been so sweet to me last night. i don't know what had happened actually but then i'm gonna trust you anyway. can i love you more and more? i really had a wonderful night. it was awesome. you sang to me when i'm down. that was what i really wanted. whatever it is, i'll understand you more day by day. no matter what, i'll smile for you. 




xoxo & maybe gonna be on lips :)

nothing will ever happen . i'm just being positive.

one unbelievable night

i had a very very bad and painful night
it was very hot last night and , my leg cramped.
nearly cried but no one cares about me :(
and i got no transport to school.
no one answer my calls
and you went to bed early.
awww, i really wanted to go.
to see how are you doing there
to just have a peep on how you gonna answer every single question
and to give you support whenever you needed em'
but everything's too late :(
i can only simply give a "HAIH" to myself
whatever and nothing can change
i'm just gonna catch some breathe
and life moves on again......
oh yea.
and i believe that i did not wear a black panties eh.
not even a black shirt or shorts
hmmm. is it because of my black hair?
so how come i gone thru so much of bad luck last night?
i wonder why.


i miss you la somebody :'(

The man i wanted all these while :)

I really love it when a guy will come to me and tell me that i'm pretty or cute or even beautiful.
It gives me a feeling that people actually likes me and i'm one of the girls around that they will just use a second to stare at.
I admire peoples who look attractive and i adore the peoples who have everything they wished.
Seriously i wanted to be more than what i am right now.


I love it when a guy can sing and also play musical instruments to me.
Write me a song once in awhile just to give me a little surprise.
They are so ramdomly awesome and so purely romantic.
I wanted a guy to love me and be loyal to me.
I love to be happy.
I don't like crying.
Wish to have a guy who melts my heart.
I hope that a guy will continue loving me although i don't look so prefect.
I love the guy who isn't afraid that the whole world will know that we are together.
I hate a guy who dump me aside whenever he wants.
I need a guy who can protect me.
I hope to be someone's special girl someday.
I love the guy who can make me laugh all the time.
That can fool and play with me.
Play me songs when i feel so sleepy and whenever i wanted to.
Give me surprises everytime.
And i'm definitely the girl who love romance.
I wish he does to.
A tall good looking guy will do.
I want a guy who treats me very good and never scold me for some minor things
I wish that a guy can teach me everything that i don't know.
Awww. Having a guy like that, I'll die for him.




I really hope that my dream may come true eh.
Okay I am dreaming too much <3

I'm a stupid person :)

I'll remain silent eventhough i don't feel too good. Nowdays i feel so moodless and wanna give a "haihhh" to peoples around me. It's the open day today in smc and i'm not going though. My mum isn't interested in taking my report card and all the comments about me. So yea. I'm at home the whole day. Studied a lil bit but still so blur about it. Addmaths and also biology. I love everything and crazy about everything. So what can i do to study more? What am i gonna do for my trials. I wanna get good results but see, Im a lazy bug and infected with those blurry dreams i had every night that made me feel so confused about everything. Ahhh. I wanna shout out loud seriously. Actually I've got a lot of stuff wanna share with you but there's something wrong somewhere. Hmmm, i don't think we can be or even might be. My dream will still remains a dream. A very beautiful and awesome dream. So thanks for making me feel so happy these few days. You are an awesome friend. Smile and also Laughs.

it's a special day

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIEL PHUA SOON LEE :) 


your favourite colour
how was the surprise? i hope it works. and yea. i feel so sleepy. ahahaha. it's 5.30am la now. people mostly like you are sleeping like a pig. hahhaha. hmm. i write this just to wish you. so yea. that's all.


and i love this awesome song
DON'T YOU WANNA STAY by JASON ALDEAN :)

I fell too deep :'(

I'm always me since I can be nobody else. I don't really know why you wanna talk bad about me. Am i that bad to you? Of course it wasn't my dignity but yours :) Hey, i felt so great after our talk. You actually cared about me eh. I still remember what you told me, and it made me feel so happy everytime. I will never forget that day and and also your cute face. >< I won't care :)

Back to whatever i wanna say, i love you. and yea, i do, so what? hahhahahha.
I still remember our first everything. and i will never forget how you used to do everything that made me laughed so bad.

Whatever it takes, it is also a part of my life.
I'm happy to say that you are my friend.
I smiled everytime i think of you.
and it gave me a really weird feeling.
I fell too deep :'(
Save me please.

am i that bad to everybody?

:(

laugh laugh laugh

hello :)
i actually wish stuff everyday
i don't know why.
i just feel that i'm not actually what i wanted all these while
hmmm. i'm feeling so bored now
someone went webcaming, and i'm here finding someone to talk to
who's that lucky human huh?
hahahahha.
shhh. secret. XD




ah phua. you are so perverted and also HAMSUP !
lalalalalal
i purposely wanna make you feel bad about this
alallala




i went to my school today
for the programme 1murid 1sukan
hmmm. i thought that we should run very very far
but then it was just a few metres.
and also just for a short 5minutes eh
really laugh out loud with meiyee
=.="
made me bring my handkerchief for nothing eh
and i'm so super duper proud of our netball team members
they really did a very good job in defeating other classes
hahahahahah
although we only got the second placing but not bad for the first year
LOL.




you wanna know who i had a crush on?
why don't you guess?
it's very near to you.
and and very funny and sotplak guy.
hahhahahah.




kay that's all for today
got to go :)
byeeeee !

i hate myself

three days didnt go to school dy
wednesday i don't really feel like going.
and and thurday i wanted to go
but someone didn't, and so i absent myself for the second day
and now friday i wanted to so badly, but i cannot wake up
and there is nobody to wake me up
i'm late
and i wanted tooooo !
i wanna talk to xiahuei so badly :)

suddenly, i miss my school
i don't know why

but luckily i did my revision for these three days
i finished my biology!
hahhahha.

i still love you :)

thank you

hey it's me again
hahhaha
of course it's me, it's mua blog verd
silly me XD
hmmm. i absent from school today
i'm studying mua biology again.
got to finish whole chapter today
i can do it :)

and btw...
i found out that you don't need me anymore
that is probably a brilliant idea for you
hmm, i can never regret now
i know you are my past
and you are going to be my past
so never look back

i'm looking forward to my new target
i wonder who will be next?
hahahahha
oh yea
and never say never
don't give up on anything you love


i'm just so random
oh god!
thanks for giving me a kidney when i was a baby
if not, the day after i was born, i will probably be dead
so let's say a prayer tonight
and thanks to our god
that HE gave us a kidney on the very first day :)

and i love you
because you taught me how to be brave
you told me to be tough
and never shed a tear even there is nobody who can help
i realised the road to my future is still very long
i used to be very weak once
but now, im a tough girl
i believe in myself
i know that somehow, i will succeed

i like you :D

my day in school goes on smoothly until wong xia huei heard who i like
this is mainly her fault to hear what i just mentioned
hahahaha
she said she knew about it at last
and and wanna know more about it
so i told them
i don't actually like you
i just admires you
i don't know why
you are too attractive
gahhh!
i still miss you laaa
how can i get you out of mua head?
my friend shas said i'm getting a sinus
sinus is not a serious disease
just something to do with nasal cavity
yea, i'm ill
very sick of sneezing and mucus in mua nose
yucks. but i have to breathe to survive
btw, i still love every part of mua body

hey boy, i like you :D



*ah phua...
( i don't know why i write your name here, i just feel like writing it)

webcam with mua daddy

heheheh. this is mua daddy. he smiles like me :) because i asked him to do so. i miss him :'(
i laugh and feel like crying at the same time. gahhh!

biologyy :D

i dont know why eh
i love biology a lot.
i can remember things about biology but not chemistry and all
hahahha
anyway, i miss your smile again
you have a very cute face
btw, i'm going to school in 5minutes by bus.
damn sleepy laaa
i wanna stay at home
it's better for me to be at home than going to school
i do nothing in school but talking talking and talking
haih
hate muaself.
btw, i still miss you now.
got to go.
chiaoooss :D

gahhh !

hey hey hey
im here guys
hees.
i ate mcd just now
my mouth hurts a lot
cause there is ulcer in mua mouth
damnnn pain i tell you
eventhough it isnt that big
but then it's still pain
im afraid of the pain
i gargled salt water these days
but it doesnt seem to get well
haih
maybe the intake of water i took was really a few
hmmm, i miss you :)
lalallalla.
imma bored
kay la everybody
i got to go :)
buhbyeeee mua friends

lazy and also hardworking

It's been so long since my last update. I'm always doing great as i know, and i must. My exams aren't very long away. hmm, my spm trials. i hate it when i wanted to study and im lazy to do so. gahhh! i just dont know what i wanted all these while. im too lazy to do everything. and i found out that my nose ain't good for dust. everytime i suck in dust, i'll definitely sneeze and also blowing out mucus. that is why imma lazy person. mua mum said i dont do chores. that is not mua attitude actually. hees. im kind of hardworking. you can ask mua friends. hehehe. oh yea! how's everybody doing? :D hope everyone does fineeee. please be noted that im kind of lazy to update my blog too. hehehehhe.

i'm not even 17 in your eyes. am i that tiny? i need my freedom now.

once again

oh hello hello to everybody
we argued huh?
i think it was mainly your fault.
i still don't know what was my wrong
i won't say sorry until i know it's my fault
that's me!
nevermind. everything's over.
no more arguments please.
can't take that anymore.

this better be good

urghh. new blog again huh? yea. i created a new blog. i forgot the password for the other blog.i'm too forgetful. hees. oh yea. im new here. btw, im fineee with mua life :) hope that all of you are doing fineee too. hmmm, idk what to write next but i'll find my way to write them all out. i promise. my english sucks. so don't laugh at what i wrote. i'm only a chinese. not well-educated with english. don't speak english much at home. hees. and ilovetolaugh actually. well, that's me :)) actually guys, im kind of playful. i'm hyper active actually. hees. gahhh! i'm just an ordinary girl laaa. that's all dudes and pretties. byeee :D